Monday, April 27, 2009


Well, I've been absent once again. One of the reasons I haven't been posting is that I have tried to keep this blog a "complain-free zone." I don't like to air my struggles for the world to see. My motivation in writing this post is not to complain though. It is to seek prayer from friends and to try to encourage anyone else that is struggling as well.

I've been struggling with my health for several years with asthma/bronchitis and sinus issues. This past year has been much worse. It seems pretty constant and to be honest I'm very worn out and tired. (Also one of the reasons for my lack of posting.) I've been to my doctor many times and even to some specialists.

This week I was quite disappointed with a visit to a specialist. The tests he did came back fine, so I asked him what the next step was. He said it was a good question and he didn't know. That wasn't what I wanted to hear. In fact, it was quite discouraging. I'm going to head back to my doctor this week and see what the next steps may be.

I have several prayer requests concerning this issue:
  1. That I will be guided to the right doctor with the right answers
  2. That I will get answers before my busy summer begins
  3. That I will have the strength I need to accomplish the tasks before me
  4. That I will rest on God's promises
  5. That I will find my rest/peace/encouragement in Him

I have learned much through this struggle. God's Word is so powerful and has been my encouragement during this time. Just this morning I read Psalm 103:11 "For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His steadfast love toward those who fear Him."

I've been very tempted to start playing the "Why Game." (It's not a fun game...I don't recommend it.) But I am learning so much about God's sovereignty through the book I'm reading (Trusting God by Jerry Bridges) and through this trial. Romans 11:33-36 "Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and how inscrutable His ways! For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who has been His counselor? Or who has given a gift to Him that He might be repaid? For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. To Him be glory forever. Amen."

God does not owe me an explanation. And I don't want a God that does. He is powerful and sovereign. His knowledge is much more vast than mine. I just need to trust in His ability to see the big picture. I need to trust in His steadfast love. I need to trust in the grace He gives to get me through. I need to trust...Trust is hard, but not impossible.

So thanks for your prayers.


Misti Ryal said...

Erin- I'm so sorry for your health struggles. In fact I can relate to how you feel. We have been dealing with health issues as well with Joshua. They started in September of 2007 and we have been to the family doctors, the pediatricians, and the specialists. Nobody can figure it out. Every test always comes back fine. His issues are more stomach related but it all started with mold in his classroom at school and then a sinus infection, and now stomach problems. I don't know that they are all related but he was really healthy up until then.
I sure is exhausting being sick and also searching for answers. We will remember you in prayer as we join you on this journey!

Carrie said...

Oh, Erin, health problems can be so exhausting...and when you don't feel good physically, it's hard to stay positive emotionally & spiritually. Thank you for sharing this struggle - I don't think it came off as complaining at all, and it helps us know how to pray for you. Hope you can get something figured out soon!

Theo-Ann said...

Hi Erin! I am praying for you. Hang in there, and continue trusting the Lord. One verse which has meant a great deal to me during physical pain and challenges has been 2 Corinthians 12:9, "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."